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Time:05:33 pm
My cuzzie sent it to me....

**Have You Ever?**

*. KISSED YOUR COUSIN?haha, no
*. RAN AWAY? no, as much as i threaten it
*. BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART? supposibly
*. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN? yeah
*. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED? uh-huh, R.I.P. "Mr. Tom"
*. BROKEN A BONE? nope
*. DRANK ALCOHOL? yeah
*. LIED: yeah
*. CRIED IN SCHOOL? yeah


::This or That::

*. COKE OR PEPSI? Pepsi
*. SPRITE OR 7UP? Sprite
*. FLOWERS OR CANDY? Candy, I hate Flowers
*. QUIET OR LOUD? Loud
*. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? don't really give a shit
*. TALL OR SHORT? Taller than i am at least
*. JEANS OR SHORTS? jeans


*..::The Last Time You::..*

*. SHOWERED? last night
*. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? Sunday morning


::What Is::...?

*. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM? don't have one
*. PERSON YOU HATE MOST? um i dunno, kinda grown out of that hate
*. LUCKY NUMBER? 17 or 7

::?::What is your favorite..?::

*. COLOR? red (and orange and pink)
*. MOVIE? Napolean Dynamite, airheads, and i now love Amelie
*. BOOK? Da vinci code, Running with Scissors and Green Eggs and ham
*. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? I hate school, but photography, i guess
*. CARS? 2004 Black, F-150, Crew Cab and mud flaps with those sexy mud flap girls
*. ICE CREAM? Chocolate chip cookie dough
*. HOLIDAY? haloween
*. SEASON? Winter, i'd so much rather be cold that hot
*. BREAKFAST FOOD? Cold, cheese Damino's Pizza


'::...Who...::'

*. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST? Rine
*. MAKES YOU SMILE? Rine
*. HAS A CRUSH ON YOU? Rine... lol, no just kidding, Robbie


*?::Do You Ever::?*

*. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT? yeah, twice, feel asleep with the phone in my hand
*. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS? no
*. SAVE E-MAILS? i hate e-mails
*. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE? a couple time
*. CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS? not recently (meaning not in the last 3 years)

\*\::...Have You...::\*\

*. FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? no
*. MADE OUT WITH JUST A FRIEND? yeah...
*. BEEN IN LOVE? yeah
*. BEEN IN LUST? more than once
*. USED SOMEONE? i might have
*. BEEN USED? yeah
*. CHEATED ON SOMEONE?: i have regreted it everyday of my life
*. BEEN CHEATED ON? not that i know of
*. BEEN KISSED? yes
*. DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? too many to count


...::Who was the last person::...

*. YOU TOUCHED? can't remember
*. YOU TALKED TO? can't remember
*. YOU IM'ed? heidi
*. WHO BROKE YOUR HEART? rather not speak of such things


*..::Do you::..*

*. COLOR YOUR HAIR? um i have just recently
*. HAVE TATTOOS? oh lord, do i wish
*. HAVE PIERCINGS? my ears
*. HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? no
*. EVER GET OFF THIS DAMN COMPUTER? yeah


*::Have you / do you / are you::*

*. SMOKE? yes/no/yes ( i don't know if anyone caught that)
*. OBSESSIVE? yeah
*. PANIC? yeah
*. DEPRESSED? i have been and i go through periods where i am
*. SUICIDAL? i was
*. OBSESSED WITH HATE? no, can't say that i am
*. DREAM OF MUTILATED BODIES, BLOOD, DEATH, AND GORE? nope, not lately at least, haha
*. CAN YOU DO ANYTHING FREAKISH WITH YOUR BODY? no, not really
*. WOULD YOU MARRY FOR MONEY? no that's horrible
*. HAVE YOU HAD BRACES? yeah, and now i have gorgeous straight teeth
*. DO YOU PLUCK YOUR EYEBROWS? yeah
*. DO YOU LIKE HAIRY BACKS? haha, no not really
*. COULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT A COMPUTER? yeah
*. DO YOU USE ICQ, AOL, AIM, ETC..? aim
*. DO YOU WEAR SHOES IN THE HOUSE OR TAKE THEM OFF? usually off
*. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FRUIT? green apples
*. DO YOU EAT WHITE OR WHEAT BREAD? wheat
*. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO VISIT? anywhere with friends
*. WHAT IS THE LAST MOVIE YOU SAW? Amelie
*. DO YOU DREAM IN COLOR OR BLACK AND WHITE? color
ARE YOU WEARING FINGERNAIL POLISH? chipped bright pink
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Time:08:33 pm
i don't know whether the tears are from the chlorine or if they're real tears
i don't know if the pit in my stomach is from too many carbonated beverages or from loneliness
i don't know what i'm doing
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Time:08:38 pm
Current Mood:indescribableindescribable
I'm glad everything last night happened in the order they did
with out Kyle's comment about my looks i don't think i would have gotten through what was just said so positively
i just wook up for the world's best nap, since i don't remember if i slept longer for like than 2 minutes last night... er, this morning
i mean i knew that what happened between him and i wasn't going to mean very much, because of the named (age) difference, that i talked about earlier
so i called him to thank him for driving my ass around and for Denny's
and mentioned what had happened
and he's words were, "we were just haveing a good time"
i find it so funny that i took it so fuckin well
i honestly believe that without what Kyle had said last night, wether it was true or not, she made me feel that it was and really helped me feel that this isn't a big deal
because it really isn't

but i did learn a lot
i know now what i'm really looking for in a guy
and it's nothing that i've been doing lately
so, it wasn't a complete faluire, hahaha

(what did you shot 'em with?) A 12-gage, what do you think!?
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Subject:HOLY SHIT
Time:01:02 pm
Current Mood:lovedloved
Thank god for weekends. hahaha

shanae couldn't get a ride to see Napolean Dynamite, so i ended up calling a couple of the guys to see what the word on the street was, but ended up calling Corinne.
holy shit was that fun
met her dad, and older brother cassidy
we then went with cass to see ND at 7:some, great movie, made me giggle pretty hard
went to some guy's house, after we bouhgt slurpee's with hott guys on the cups (shawn white and carey hart)
then i think we went to Fiesta Bowling
met cassidy's friends, april, sierra, kyle, jason, adam, meghan and the guy who gave me a monzerela stick
bowled a while, beat cassidy ever time
feel in love with kyle (who is female), such a sweetheart, she gave me this huge ego boost,haha, and i have a lot more confidence
went to denny's around 1 or 2 in the a.m.
threw some sasauges and bouncy balls
made dumb jokes and made the poor waiter get us a bunch of extra waters, toast, and eggs
ended up at cassidy's
watched Amelie, as we were all laying across cass's bed
Amelie is such a cute movie and i have decided that french is such a hot language
corinne passed out and i ended up haveing a nice conversation with cassidy after the movie
ended up back at rine's this morning greeted with a lock-down and pancakes

wow, it sounds so boring when i write it that way
but it was killer fun
holy lord, do i love corinne
the girl is the shit, and i'm killer lucky to have a bitchin friend like her
omg.... corinne, did you hear that sucking noise?! haha
thanks for not punching me in the face this morning
haha, hey atleast it was me and not "R.E.L.", right?
oh wow, great times
i have decided that brushing your teeth is the friggin coolest thing to do in the whole world.

YOU MADE ME LOOK LIKE A FRIGGIN IDIOT....
Tina, come get some ham
I caught you a beautiful bass (or some shit)
Wanna come over and sit on it?
hahaha

Pedro for President
vote for me and all your wildest dreams will come true
LaFawnduh, yeah!

right o.k. i'm done

really into this guy at the moment, um , don't know how shit's gonna go though
i mean i really can't hope for too much, i'm 14 and he's 19
and i think that may be a problem for him
but hey, i can't bitch that much
i was killer while it lasted
haha, yeah the whole day i spent with him
i'm such an idiot sometimes....haha

i was in such a horrid mood friday ngiht, and saturday morning, then i meet up with corine and my mood got so much better
she's awesome, she has a great personality, and i can't manage to stay upset when i'm with her
i love you, rine!

wow, i can not stop smileing
i keep getting the chills, too
ok i need to stop i sound like an uber-moron

i want to be a tupperware sales"person" when i grow up
oh, or a sushi chef
YEAH, a sushi chef
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Time:09:13 pm
Current Mood:nostalgicnostalgic
tonight was rather interesting....

went ot the park, kinda hopeing that josh was there. ended up being "gnarly karly" and hanging out with the usuals. got really excited because steve-o was gonna take me to McDick's, but it took him too long so i ended up going with Josh Osteen, had in interesting convo and returned with a sudae a strawberry milk shake for Tyler and my beloved, long awaited LARGE VANILLA MILKSHAKE. So i give tyler his strawberry milkshake and as he's huggin me, my shake gets caught on his shirt and spills. i about cried, no not really, it wasn't a biggie.....

ended up stareing at all the guy's crotches. yeah, that was fun..... hahaha

i'm so proud of myself....
right so i was digging Robbie, so today in photo i got this bitchin idea to give him my number and i developed the bitchin photo of my number in front of him, and gave it to him. I was pretty proud of myself....
haha and then robbie and joe tried on my pants as i tried on joe's and robbie's, it was great.

i've decided that i want to be hindu.
yeah
i've also decided that i want to be a pro surfer when i grow up.


how do i fall in love so fast all over again with a guy that makes me cry to no end. myles drove me home, i wanted to shoot myself. i'm a fuckin idiot. i need to get over this shit, i mean i think i am because of this robbie shit, but i'm not really. i mean holy fuck he's obviously over me. sometimes i regret everything i've ever done. i kind of wish i never had met him, never have fallen so deeply in love. i must sound a like a fuckin babbleing jackass. i just need to get all this out in the open right now, i mean, not a lot of people read this, so it won't be that big of a deal.... wow
i reme,ber the first day we met. i remember that night, learing everything. i remember knowing i would never ever ever be able to get over him. i told that kid so much shit, he knows me a shitload better than my own parents do. better than i do for fuck's sake. he's held so many secrets for me, shit that i would have never been able to tell anyone else.
i miss how shit was, i'd go throw all the horrible things all over again, just get back to the time that i knew he loved me.
i want to cry

lord, sometimes i hate myself.
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Subject:how fast
Time:05:30 pm
it amazes me how my emotions change so rapidly.... well this time it wasn't all me, it was a stupid phone call

if you had never left me you would have never have to worry about getting me back
don't be sorry to me that you weren't there when you thought i needed you, you missed a lot, and if i never even knew that you could be there i never knew i needed you
i never needed you, NEVER, people who have really loved me have always furfilled all of my needs
it's your fault you don't know me now, if you would have known me in the past, you'd know me now

i always knew about you, always, but i never knew i was yours, because i never was, and i'm still not
it's all your fault
do not ever blame anything on me
it's amazing to me that you know absolutly nothing about the person you have created
it's amazing to me that you had something to do with me in the first place
you are nothing in me
nothing

you're a fuckin idiot.
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Subject:Holy Lord
Time:04:15 pm
Current Mood:blankblank
Tamagotchi's are comeing back... omg... i remember i had a million of those and those damn giga pets... i even had the salem one from Sabrina the teenage witch, and the limited addition gold tamagotchi. i took them camping with me once, that's horrible

Dan the man is gonna be 20 in november, so all hope there is completly lost, oh well he wasn't that hot anyways
i haven't seen stephan in a while, so i don't really give a shit anymore

No me gusta el David, pero si me gusta el Robbie.....
No me gustas loss accidentes de caros, pero si me gustas los cenciertos.....
No me gusta la novia de me ex-novio, pero si me gustas los amigos de mi ex-novio.....

yeah....

i'm an idiot... i think i accedently sent david the wrong message.... i kinda feel asleep on his bed, next to him err... more across his chest and i don't like him
i'm an idiot


Robbie's cute...

alrea, aubree (nikki) and desi got in a car accident and scared the shit out of me....

a lot of people are going to killswitch, and i'm not, becuase my parents are paraniod....

tori, no, myles' friends, yes....... wink-wink



i want cookies..... chase loves da coc(/o)k(ies)

i want to be a brain surgon (sp) today
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Subject:E-M-P-I-R-E! that fuckin song is stuck in my head!!! AHHHHHH!!!
Time:03:41 pm
Haven't updated in a week, oh well, nothing too interesting happened

lord i have fallen in "love" three times this week, haha i guess that's kinda interesting.

it's amazing how much a lot of girls piss me off.... i think it's gotten worse now that arlea told me that a lot of girls at marana don't like me all that much, so i think they piss me off quicker now then ever because i know they all dis-like me

oh well

haha robbie has a penis that is "under par" HAHAHA oh lord..... i find that halarious
he's still semi-cute and extremly funny, so he's allowed

i'm grounded untill tuesday
i can feel the extreme boredom setting in

this is so stupid, i get grounded for being half an hour late when for the last week or so i've been getting home on time or calling to notify the parents if i'll be late, and i get grounded for FOUR FUCKIN' DAYS for being 1/2 hour late, ain't that some bullshit?

oh lord
"dan the man" is a cutie..... but he may be a little too old for me, or rather, i just may be a little too young for him, but like corinne has said, "when has age stopped you before" haha
anyroads, this guy has gorgeous eyes, an awesome laugh and a killer sense of humor, plus i'm feeling the facial hair, haha.......

right so this sucks, i wanted to party it up this weekend with "fernanda" as "gnarly carly" ( i have decided that to make "carly" even more "gnarly" we're gonna spell it with a 'k', so it's now "Gnarly Karly" haha, or i may just stay with the "C"...) damn grounding

for those of you who don't know "Gnarly C/Karly" is, she's my alter ego. if i ever do anything really "extreme" (as in being REALLY dumb, REALLY mean, etc...) it'll actually be "G.C/K" doing it.... not Bre(e).

right

stephan's a hottie as well, i'm diggin the buff-ness going on, but i'm not feeling him calling me a "slut" out of nowhere, i mean holy shit i hardly even know this kid.

sometimes i just want to punch myself in the fuckin face
have you ever felt the world turn? i could swear that night before last i could

i want to make this clear, the guys i mentioned earlier are just cute guys that i happen to have met, i do not "like" these guys, because i do not know them, i just think they're hot.
o.k. now that we've cleared that up....

oh wait i forgot to babble about the other one, oh well.... we'll keep that a secret.

I HATE THE MALL
I HATE THE MALL
I HATE THE MALL
I HATE THE MALL
I HATE THE MALL
I HATE THE MALL
I HATE THE MALL

holy lord, do i hate the fuckin mall..... i hate being sorrounded by chick's dressing and acting like they're the shit, when in fact they are, just SHIT and the's wanna-be "gangsta'" guys.... holy shit, i want to bust a cap in their "g-unit" asses. holy fuckin lord, do i hate the fuckin mall!


when i grow up i want to be a fighter pilot
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Time:04:23 pm
DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in
games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be
with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves
attention. Loves to be loved.
Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short
tempered. Changing
personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in
oneself. Hates restrictions.
Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical


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Subject:Right So
Time:03:05 pm
Current Mood:nervousnervous
school has been ok
shannon left to cal
i'm really happy that i swallowed my pride and apoligized for me acting like a 10 year-old. she's really cool
had fun with the emo tears, the lighter and "vindicated" with kaylee.
haha thursday night we spoke of things, such as makeing out, haha
oh lord, then shanae and i watched mxc. HAHAHA, that show is halarious, but i relized it's much more fun when you watch it with someone, versus watching it alone.
then davie and myles came over.YAH!
then school
interesting

wow, it sucks when people change for the worst, and someone you thought you knew, you don't. and they act like fuckin idiots now. idiots meaning all serious and shitty.

Friday night was very fun.

i thought i was going to have to shoot myself to get some attention (bre, you attention whore, you).
then i call up davie and he said, "richard, myles and i are gonna come over" so i say ok and i get all excited.
we sit around and watch billy madison
then myles and dick leave
then davie and i watch "yeah right"
my pants fall down to my knees too many times to count and i make hot chocolate
we then proceed to make our way to the park in the pouring rain
only to be met with more rain on the way to davie's
we sit around there for a little
myles, richard and brandon show up
we go to myles'
the guys dress up
davie goes streaking
brandon throws a frog in myles' car
and i save it's life, then myles goes after it with a plunger
then brandon saves his life by takeing him down the street as i hold back myles
richard and i were the only sane ones that night
cory shows up
they fuck with myles car
an off duty cop shows up
asks where blah-blah-blah (an adress) is
davie says it's his house
he gets in the car
we all get nervous and watch the car drive away
then the cop comes back
he tells us that davie has decided to skate back
we sit and wait
davie tells us that the cops daughter was being followed by a truck
so she jumped over davie's wall and knocked on his back door
i get all nervous relizing i have to walk home at ten
so cory volunteers to drive me home
i get home safely but paranoid and pass out
the END!
clapclapclap

i want to be a construction worker today
yes, a construction worker
ooooo
or maybe a trucker
yeah, a trucker

oh dude, this is horrible
i was hitting on this guy in church
dude, he was hottie
but he was waaaaayyy too into Chris T. (christ) for my likeing


holy shit, kayle(e) if anyone needs a boyfriend, it's me.

yeahyeah i'm done
i'm gonna be a tucker when i grow up today
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